Saturday, December 27, 2008

Angels, paints and wishes

The Christmas Angel... What I wished for (computer working) came true!
This is the Angel of Belief...
One must believe in the possibilities of what you would like to manifest. Interesting time of year for belief... Do you believe you can manifest that which you desire or is it wishful thinking. Wishing isn't enough - you need to believe.
Wishing and Believing... Make a wish and believe it will come to pass.
See it. Visualize it. Believe it to be so.
If you truly believe you can have it, make it so.
I believe we are all capable of so much more than we think.
I think we just get scared.
I wonder if we admit to being scared, then another person can admit to it as well and if we all support each other, even though we are scared... well, we can help each other through that fear to the other side. The side that holds our dreams. Wouldn't that be something!
I sure hope your dreams come to be.

A painting I've been working on in oils. I'm used to working with acrylics and have decided to try my hand with oils.. slow process, working on it little by little. Allowing what wants to come up.... still working on this. Who knows, maybe it'll be finished by the next full moon.
Hope you all had a Merry Christmas.
My wish is for more understanding, more compassion, more honesty in communications, more patience to listen closely, observe more of what nature has to tell us, have more gratitude for that which we have and to share it more often with those who do not.
I wish us all more peace.
More love.
More joy.
I believe we can.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Still working on it....

I'm seeing this as a process. I'm without the internet again.. but thankfully, the library has access. But the upside is I'm doing more ART!
If I'm not back online by Christmas.......

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Scariest Night!

Imagine your computer crashing... and having to do a total recovery.. going to bed thinking you have lost the last two or three? years of your "computer life"..

I went through all the stages of grief. anger.. denial...

Trying to maintain the higher spiritual aspect of it, but then come crashing down to thinking it is all lost..

Is mercury retrograde or something????

This morning I turned on the computer to my own desktop picture :-)

A Christmas Miracle!!! but unable to connect to the internet.

Trouble shooting for what felt like hours on the phone to no avail... call HP.

I explained and then ... another Christmas miracle.. it connected!

Not exactly the way it used to.. but hey, I'm here :-)

I have all my pictures.

My documents.

My blogs..

oooooh computer... I love you so much.. please be good now.

I'm going to get some discs now to upload my photos, as I now have another chance.

Life is good.

a bit nerve-wracking at times... but in general it is. Life has more ups than downs.

It was interesting to observe my feelings last night.

Is this what death feels like? If I feel like this about my computer, what will it feel like when a loved one passes on. In the big picture, it all passes.... and does it really leave? It all just changes form.... all part of All That Is.

how attached we are to those "things" we have... attached to life.

Enjoy it while it's here.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Playing with angels

Playing with paper angels... and still playing with them.
I've been picking up the oil paints as well, experimenting with using them, blending, finding my confidence.
Most of my energy seems to have been going into teaching classes and workshops and these little angels are great to leave on my table, adding to them here and there.
But I miss making my mandalas, so I played with the oils paints, redoing an old canvas.
I don't think it's done yet.
This came from the Daily Guru this morning:
With Clear Seeing,
Reality does not suddenly change.
All that shifts is our perspective --
and we eventually rediscoverthe familiar Reality we have been seeing all along.
The moment of awakening may be marked by an outburst of laughter,
but this is not the laughter of someone who has won the lottery or some kind of victory.
It is the laughter of one who, after searching for something for a long time,
suddenly finds it in the pocket of his coat.

I picked up Alberto Villoldo's book Courageous Dreaming last night...
I paused to think: "What story am I telling myself? What dream am I dreaming? Why not change my story, change the perspective of it and redream the dream to what I would rather see?" Have I bought into this dream? Why?
Am I dreaming you? Am I dreaming all of this?
We share this dream of life on earth and I would like to wake from the nightmare of selfishness and greed to a dream of sharing and helping one another.
Shift the perspective.. look into my pocket to find that all I had to do was just put my hand there and find the key.
Change the story.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Chair Swap

"Lizard's Longing"


"High" Chair

Art in the Garden

Healer's Chair alongside the Nest Chair
I really do love making these little tiny things, always tweaking here and there, adding stuff at the last moment... until it needs to go out in the mail.
When to stop... always seems to be the dilemma.
I hope today finds you in a nice comfortable chair,
a chair to take you on long imaginative journeys,
sacred spaces,
one that allows your creativity soar into the universe.
If your lucky enough and it's warm enough,
maybe you'll find yourself outside doing art in the garden
or maybe you just need to nest :-)
Wherever your "seat" finds comfort today,
may there be peace and love surrounding it.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Being Grateful

She is my angel of gratitude... one of the angels taught in the Angel Project taught by Chaska.
We are on a mission to make as many angels as we can and send them out into the world, give as gifts or fill up your home with them :-)
I am an angel collector and have all sorts of angels flying around here. Actually, they are "winged-things" because some of them are fruit with wings... fairies, anything with wings gets hung up around here!
Making your own is a whole other story...
mostly because you set the intention of what or where you want it to go...
Thus, the Gratitude Angel.. in time for Thanksgiving.
It is a reminder for me, not so much to be grateful for everything around me, because on MOST days, I am... sharing that gratitude (abundance) is a bit harder and I am well aware of my tending to hoard stuff.... share my chocoate! ok, you can have a little of it...
Can I send out my very best, most valued stuff in a swap???
so, here is my mission..... Share.
And that is what this angel is saying... there is soooo very much in my life that I am grateful for. Share the damn chocolate and then go buy some more!
What is the hardest thing you ever had to share?
(p.s. I did give hubby some chocolate, but only the pack that was already opened)

Monday, November 17, 2008

Laughter is the best medicine

I love the Autumn. I love it's color palette. They are optimistic colors.. colors of creativity.
Although I haven't been posting very much lately, it's not for lack of being creative. I have been.
ATC's for a swap, angels, mandalas, projects for art class, paintings, masks, photography... all still in the "process" stage.
So, like I said, it's a time of high energy, optimism, and creative out-pouring.
My mother is the opposite... she doesn't like the fall, because it symbolizes the coming of winter.
She's also gone through some trying times lately and I can understand some of her negativity. The aging process has it's challenges and she does not see these as her "golden" years... and yes, she can get VERY pessimistic.
So I try to get her to see it (life) in a more positive way... sometimes, I try to get her to see through my eyes... sometimes, it backfires.
Ma, "you're just looking out the wrong window", I say to her.
I read a story once, and I just love the metaphor of it.
I proceeded to tell the story... even though I can't really remember it very well... just the "message" of it.
"Once there was a little boy..."
"Why does it always have to be a boy?", she interjects.
"OK, Once there was an old woman"... (I snicker a bit here)
"Why can't it just be a girl?"
"Once there was a little girl..." I say softly and calmly... speaking in "Johnny tone".
"Why are you speaking so softly?"
I speak a little more loudly, and continue to tell her how the little girl looked out the window to see her dog lie dead and she became really, really sad... crying...
A wise old man came to her and asked her why she was crying and she pointed to the window where her dog lie dead. He took her hand and walked over to another window, "what do you see?" he asked.
"I see the sun shining, a rainbow and flowers..."
Mom: "You're in fantasy land! Where do you get these ideas??"
I am trying to maintain a straight face here while I continue to say, "See, you were just looking out the wrong window..."
Mom: " The Dog's STILL DEAD!"
I am hysterical laughing at this point... mostly because my mom, the pragmatist is right and I screwed up the story and she doesn't "get it" but my laughter is contagious and she laughs,
which is the result I intended all along.
So, it doesn't really matter how one reaches the end result... just that we achieve the goal.
And this was to laugh.
Hope you all get to have a hearty laugh today :-) and then share that laughter with someone else.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Angel of Hope

She is the Angel of Renewed Hope.
I am feeling this after the election, this sense that I can breathe a deeper, more relaxed breathe... There is a renewed hope in me and I'm sure in so many others.
I thought she was about peace and she is, but HOPE came last night, her power wand imbued with the spirit of wisdom. A higher perspective of choosing: intuitive and spiritual.
The symbol of the spiral on her heart chakra takes us up to a new level, spiraling upward, with a refreshed, renewed and open heart.. a heart of service.
We are all brothers and sisters on this magnificent planet.
She is the Angel of Hope that we all can work together to make this one peaceful place.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Art Every Day - catching up

I've been in a creative flurry lately. Mandalas. Some are small, others larger on canvas.
I went back to the twinkling H2O's for a bit... I was reading a little today and a line in When the Heart Waits (Sue Monk Kidd)... about letting go of letting go... not get so crazy about it - this letting go.. just let go of the whole letting go thing.............
This was a prompt from Milliande's Creative club, using lightening, I came up with this "electric tree"... after turning the picture upside down :-)
Today I made some sculpey faces for the Angel project which Mai-Liis is teaching... you can still join. Our intention is to make angels.. enough to fill as much space as we can... an army of angels :-) So, while those faces were baking in the oven, I sewed up an angel body in blue.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Ancestors Mandala

As I was painting this mandala, I felt like it had something to do with ancestors. Interestingly, today is all Saints day, tomorrow all souls day. It is said that at this time, the veil between the worlds is the thinnest. It's a time when we can ask for help from our dearly departed.
It is about change. Leaves turn and fall. People we love leave this world.
Today, Neptune turns direct on the Day of the Dead. Neptune rules the spiritual realm.
Nearing the end of the painting, I decided to put the astrological symbols as they sit on my chart... all at the bottom (underworld) and put stars above for those I remembered, they who may be out there helping us on this day.
This one is for all my relatives and friends who have gone on before me. I miss you and send love to you... May you all be at peace and having fun... sure a couple of you are rolling your spiritual eyes at me :-)

p.s... planets at the bottom should really read: Venus, then Moon, then Pluto if it were to be accurate :-)

Friday, October 31, 2008

Creative Sisters


Monday, October 20, 2008

For the curious...

We've been having a discussion about this growth on Coach Creative Space, and I figured I would ask the people of the Read Sanctuary about it... a very cool place to "retreat" from the world :-)
Clicking on the picture will give you a closer look..
This was taken two weekends ago, when people were actually swimming in the water at the beach. Yesterday, Sunday, and today, we're pulling on the coats!
So, hopefully there will be an answer to this mysterious stuff :-)
thanks Joy for taking a peek!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Divine Mother

Blessed Mother
Divine Mother
Vessel of Love
She is Light - radiant and pure
and Wind - cleansing, refreshing
Soft, fertile Earth
sprouts beneath her feet
Abundant and Lush
Through Her Love and Will
Creation blossoms
and all women become
Blessed Mothers
Divine Vessels
of Love
While I was working on this, my husband walked in and said, "Blessed Mother".
I looked up, a bit surprised... "You should call it that", he said.
he continued to say, "You are the blessed mother, your mother is, so is mine..."
He got it.
She is the Divine Feminine, The Yin to the Father, the masculine.
She is here to remind us that we need to bring the divine feminine back to balance the masculine.
We need both.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

7 things about me

I've been tagged by 3rdeyemuse, to play 7 Things about Me. A little diversion in this crazy world......

Here's the Rules:

) Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog
2) Share 7 facts about yourself, some random, some weird
3) Tag 7 more people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs 4) Let them know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs
7 Things About ME :-)
1) I have 5 blogs, but one is personal and the other just doesnt' get out there because I'm trying to make it a 'business type blog'... and needs work.
2) I started painting on walls (bedroom) when I was about 15 and haven't stopped. I now make a living from it. I have never had a white wall!
3) I quit High School but went to college with my lowest grade being only one B+... just short of a 4.0 !
4) I've combined my passion of art with my love of children to create a living teaching art to kids. My passion is all about creating and I love how kids create. besides... I have a hard time working for anyone other than myself.
5) I built a high platform bed and painted a tree over it, so we can pretend we sleep in a tree house :-)
6) I went to Peru twice (I love Macchu Picchu)
7) My dream is to open an art/healing center where I'd have classes, workshops, lectures, yoga, meditations..... a spiritual place to create, and learn and Be :-) and I have to add taking photos of nature in here somewhere.......
and now I will Tag

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Heart Portal

This morning in my "manic" state, I did this mandala. I needed to release... I took my last dosage of prednisone for the poison ivy yesterday and I'm thinking this is what it feels like to have ADD! I'm still itching and it's still on some parts of my body, but at least my eyes and ears are cleared... so, I am in high gear.
The mandalas are helpful in focusing, as I'm very restless and all over the place.
This mandala is my message to myself and whoever else is interested :-) to be open in our hearts and use this time for compassion. Think with your heart rather than your head during this time.
Rather than choose panic and fear, open your heart and let what needs to be said come from there... choose love. choose openess.
Well, I must be on the right path with this as this came in the "mailbox" this morning and thought it appropriate to share here:
It comes from...

Message 64
Heart Portal
The heart is the thinking organ of your human form, it is truly in command. The energetic field of the heart matrix is far stronger and more expanded than that the energetic matrix of the brain. Your mentors and avatars have been teaching this for lifetimes. Human beings long ago learned to close or protect their heart circuit. This is the main dysfunction on your planet and the main source of dis-ease.
When the heart circuit is protected there is an energetic loop. There is a thought shield that filters or monitors the coming in or the going out of energy in a more guarded manner. The human being has allowed the brain, the programs, and beliefs to monitor and guard the heart center. These programs/beliefs close and numb your responses to the messages and guidance coming from and going to this heart center.
These beliefs about protecting the heart center are passed down energetically from parents to child. A child learns from the unspoken as well as the spoken messages about being hurt, or loving freely and easily, what feels safe or unsafe, who to trust or not trust. There are the wounds passed down from generation to generation. There are the wounds within the family dynamics of this lifetime. There are the wounds that each human being has personally experienced while in this embodiment.The heart center is your portal. It is your gate. It is important for humanity to begin to heal the wounds that their heart carries. It is essential to healing the planet, one heart beat at a time, one human being at a time. This is the responsibility for each and every person on the personal level, genetic level and global level, to heal the wounded patterns within the heart matrix. Humanity is stepping into an entirely new paradigm in which the thinking heart will be the honored, whole, and connected to the other heart matrixes. The heart portal was designed to serve as the gateway to the stars, allowing the energy to flow from divine source out into your reality. The important tools in healing and harmonizing your heart portal are the vibrations of joy, gratitude and appreciation. It is the power of these vibrations which allows the heart center/heart portal to heal from all the wounds carried. It is the service work each human being is asked to give for the wholeness and healing of the heart center of humanity, for when human beings live from an open and healed heart they know and feel their connected with each other.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Being a Vessel

When I looked at my chart this morning, I was struck by the shape the planets made that are transiting around my chart. These are the red inner symbols which are transiting my outer birth date planets in blue (these don't change).
A bowl... an empty vessel waiting to be filled.
I am open, waiting to be filled with whatever new ventures come my way. What will I accept and what will I turn away?
When planets are at the bottom of the chart, one is more internal, looking within rather than pushing outwards. Recently, an astrology referred to this period in my life as a cocoon stage.
The first house, Virgo rising, has Saturn there. It is the house of Self and with Saturn, I am seeing Self-Discipline enter more profoundly. Finding that true Self and understanding it more deeply so I can in turn bring it out to the world.
My values in life, 2nd house, is being activated by the energy and assertion of Mars, the Sun and Mercury. Valuing my potentials, my gifts, my worth.
My dear friend and healer through her Psych-K testing brought this up, seeing a connection here to my recent bought of poison ivy!
She's amazing! I have come to realize the true value in myself and what I have to offer others and how to be compensated for it... which is always somewhat of a challenge.
Yes. I do deserve all the good things in life, good relationships, love, warm home, an abundance of art supplies :-).... You get the picture. What's the value of my services?
Yes, Chaska, I did give myself a raise :-)
The 3rd house - house of communication holds Venus there... speak and communicate with love.
The 4th is the home. Pluto, planet of transformation has been hanging out here for quite awhile and Jupiter has been bringing in the luck. I do have a happy home - but will I be moving soon???
5th house, where my sun sits, is the house of creativity. The moon will briefly visit for 2 days, so I'll make the best of my creativity - more painting and mandala making!
Neptune is hanging out in the 6th house of service and health. mmmmm and on the cusp of the 7th has been Uranus bringing in a lot of unexpected and sudden partnerships and relationships. This is the house where you begin to move outward towards others.
With Uranus, one learns to expect the unexpected.
I am an open vessel... we all are if we choose to be, ready to be filled with our passions. When we take the time to be filled, like a well, then we can in turn supply the refreshing waters of our true spirit - sharing them with others.
We are all blessed when we give of ourselves, our True Self, rather than what we think may be "expected" of us, thinking this is the responsible self, when in fact, we would be doing ourselves, others and our planet a disservice if we did not give who we really are.
Divine Beings -
Let us all be filled with Love.
ok, so I meant to place this in the other blog Roots N' Wings.... oh well...

Monday, October 06, 2008

Mandala Peace Project

This is on my other blog, but I wanted to place it here as well. A group of us at Mandala Oasis have decided to journey through the art of the mandala to set the intention of Peace and Love in this world.
When we come to a place of peace within ourselves, we send out that vibration into the world.
Cheryl's blog explains it in more detail.
A group of 9 women, for 9 weeks will be creating mandala art with the intention of sending out love and peace through creating these mandalas...9 catagories such as creativity, health, nature, etc.
Mandalas, I have experienced, have healing qualities. They are meditations of my heart, helping me to focus and center myself and reflect back to me inner secrets, opening me to discover deeper insight into myself. I invite you to discover their magical qualities for yourself. Click on the webring to the right to find others that are participating and travel to their blogs of mandala magic!
We are always welcoming new members into our group. A warm, welcoming and inspiring group it is! I'm grateful and blessed to be in a community of women and men who support one another, inspire and share their spiritual and artistic lives.
Envision Peace.
Create Peace.
As the mandala above mentions, there are infinite possibilities when we work together as One.
May Peace sit always in your hearts.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Labyrinth Intentions

For the new moon, and having the day off, I decided to walk the labyrinth at Wainwright House.
I had just read a passage in The Dance of the Dissident Daughter by Sue Monk Kidd about her thoughts and experiences of the labyrinth. It was once looked at as a symbol of the divine womb, a ritual symbolizing rebirth.
Moving into this center, we shed that which no longer works, letting go of old outworn ideas, regrets, worries, doubts, a symbolic death. Shedding the old skin like a snake, I visualized myself stepping out of this old skin.
As I was walking into the center, I observed how as we walk into the labyrinth, it appears at times that we are moving away from the center even though we are indeed walking inwards. I thought of the spiral, how we come back to something over and over, even though it's at a different plane..
I had intentions of shedding that which I have no control of (worries), that which holds me back (fears) and all the doubts of where I should be, what I should be doing...
I am here.
In my heart. Being. I am that which I am. That's all I need to be. Always being in the perfect place at the perfect time (even if we don't always see it at the moment).
Entering the Center, the core of my being, coming to understand more of who I am.
Feeling at peace, I left the center, moving away but taking with me a deeper understanding that I am part of the divine plan. I am here to share the gifts I have, bringing who I am into this world. Each one of us, as individuals has some unique ideas, wisdom, energy, talents to share.
We are each a divine spark making up the whole.
Taking this outside, spiraling outwards to re-enter the world with me, this knowing.
I am "gifted" with an acorn dropped by my side. I pick it up with the thoughts, "this is my body".
Yes. All of nature, it all has it's potential. This is the gift. We have the potential, but will we use it?
Say YES.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Give and take

After yesterday's Clay Day and watching everyone work with the coil method of building pots, I'm sure this had an influence on my mandala :-)
I was so restless afterwards, my mind could not still itself. I read a page of my book over and over and over... so I went to the mandala for some focus.
To help still the mind, it is a great meditation.
Never quite knowing what it will be about until it begins to unfold, I began in the center with the spiral.
As I spiraled outwards, it reminded me of reaching out.
Reaching out to community.
We reach out and we pull back. From our centers, we reach out to others, giving a part of ourselves. We touch others with our ideas, our gifts. We teach and we learn.
And then we draw back in, taking with us all that we've received in our relationship with others. We give love, we receive love back in return.
We give gratitude, we receive gratitude.
We give of ourselves and we receive the gift of reflection, understanding, wisdom, friendship.
Give and Take. A constant exchange that benefits us all.
It's about community. What do you contribute and what do you receive?
It's also about a balance between the two.
Putting yourself out into the world, and allowing time for inner reflection.
This seems to be an area that our world needs to remember, as do I, that we need to take the time to go within, to center ourselves and balance it with our giving to the world.

Monday, September 22, 2008


I tend to see the Spring as a time of birth and awakening and of course it is, but as I was creating this mandala, this flying creature just wanted to "awaken" and come out of her cocoon. As the leaves change and the pods release their seeds, ending their cycles, she wants to be born.
Autumn is a time that I especially love. It symbols a time of abundance and renewed energy for me. The oppressive heat of the summer is gone. The weather rejuvenates me and I love being outside observing nature's changes. Things going to seed in preparation for new growth to come after winter's slumber.
So after this was done, I questioned the idea of birth and awakening at other times.
Do we get to choose when we will be "awakened", claiming our own cycles of rebirth, to resurface and break away from the "cocooned" existence?
Does it matter what time?
Because I think NOW would be as good a time as any.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Peace Day

Tomorrow is International Peace Day and another prompt for our Mandala Oasis group. Another canvas that was started awhile ago... transformed.
It is just so nice to get back to painting, drawing, just being creative for myself.
And that brings me to what I feel brings greater peace to the world..
We must start with ourselves.
Once we feel at peace, it is inevitable that peace manifests outside our selves,
but first we must bring it inwards.
What steps can you take that will bring peace within.
What will help you to raise your vibrations to that level?
What makes you happy?
What is your passion?
What causes your heart to open and sing?
Do one thing today and tomorrow that brings comfort and peace inside yourself.
Add one more day.
And then another.....
and another....

Letting go

Last year in class at Igor's, I started to put some paint on this round black mat board, just playing around. The center, the green stroke and a little of the purple and the tiny yellow dot are what remains... I added to it for our Mandala Oasis yahoo group's Autumn prompt.
Autumn to me is about letting go.
Lesson from the trees. In time, we all need to release that which is no longer helping us, that which is out worn or just taking up space, collecting dust!
Sometimes, it is just a little bit of letting go.. a gentle breeze and other times, it takes hurricane winds to release the tight grasp.
What do you need to release?
Emotions? A grudge? An opinion or feeling that you've held on to way too long?
Or is it the stuff in the closet... taking up space, that could be used for something else...
Another canvas that was started awhile ago... I may still work on it. Notice the same whirling leaves in the wind... yep. all about letting go............

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

An Autumn flower

From a promt at Mandala Oasis, this is one idea... others are streaming forth. Actually, my intention was different, but a flower just wanted to "happen" and therefore it did.
My intention was to come to the page and do something loose and free... I guess I needed something to be structured today!
I went out for a walk with camera and will play with those later.
While attempting to clean up more of the art room, I found an old round canvas that I started with a tree... and well.
That was when "loose and free" was able to happen... so much for cleaning!
Still working on it........

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Sunflower Mandala

If I cast the seeds into the wind,
where will they land?
Onto hard, dry, clay soil
rocky with stones
onto moist fertile soil,
loose and warm
rich and deep
ready to be nutured
to become
it's full potential
Take care of your seeds :-)
Bloom into your True Self
Nurture your dreams
May we all be blessed with rich soil
Love and Light,

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Thanks Pattie :-)

Pattie gave me this award. Thanks and I am truly appreciative. I love her art... go check it out. It makes me smile :-)
Now I need to pass it on........ first here are the rules:
1) I have to pick 7 of my favorite blogs and…
2) The winner can put the logo on their blog
3) Link the person you received your award from
4) Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
5) Put links of those blogs on yours.
6) Leave a message on the blogs of the ones you’ve nominated.
I would like to give this award to:
(I'm doing this in stages) I've come upon some new blogs and would like to give them this award. It's from participating in The Altered Pages' The Pulse.
first it goes to Robyn, who I noticed on Coach Creative sight and love the work she does.
I've bookmarked Thrifty Collage Artist
Just discovered this blog by Lynne Hoppe
and I'll put some more up later... as I really need to get off the computer!!!!!!!

Spiraling In / Out

I blogged my spiral thoughts here and played with the spirals this morning. One spirals in and one spirals out... as a divination, Greer says:
Unfolding: "The spiral suggests that the design you have begun to draw upon your tracing board has much to unfold, if you allow it to follow the directions and dynamics it has already set in motion. Just as the oak unfolds from the acorn, the smallest portion of a spiral's arc already contains the full outward sweep of the finished spiral in potential; follow that potential, and your design will unfold as it should.... the spiral councils patience, attentiveness, and a sensitivity to context, so that the spiral patterns of the future can unfold in their own way."
I took this as a message to move the painting along... giving birth, rather than staying in the "cocoon" stage.
Diminishing: The spiral suggests that the design is spiralling inwards, tracing ever smaller arcs around the point where it will finally come to rest. The same inner dynamics that once sent it spinning outward in expanding curves now bring it back again, and attempting to force it around into a circle will only break the continuity of the pattern and leave something artificial in place of the natural dance of spiralling force."
A reminder that things cycle around... birth and death.. nothing lasts forever. Sometimes it is better to rest for awhile and then pick up the brush and move on......
The quotes are from John Michael Greer in Techniques for Geometric Transformation.

Friday, September 12, 2008


So far, this is a painting I've been working on... Lots of stuff came up while painting it.
A desire to be connected to nature, the elements... the idea of gestation, cocooning, playing around with ideas and giving birth to them, manifesting them after some gestation period..
when will the eggs hatch or the butterfly be released... what comes next?
Not forcing, just allowing.
The desire to be in touch with the higher Self, the Being I am when all the roles I play are striped away... what still remains.... This desire to be in touch and remain there in this authentic place of Being and not get distracted by too much over analysis. Rather, go to my Heart Center more often, to Feel my way through it.
Here's to all those "cocooning" out there waiting for a new journey to Self. A continuous process I am sure, rebirthing our Selves each time to greater growth, spiraling up from the depths of our souls to higher ways of being.

Monday, September 08, 2008

Some mandalas......

Releasing Seeds
Beyond the Garden Gate
Golden Cocoon

I took a break to do some painting... and then took a break from that to do some mandalas.
This last one, golden cocoon, is about where I am right now.
Just as I was about to write, after uploading this, my son called and began to speak of feeling as if he were in a cocoon stage.
WHAT?!?! (I am not alone)
He is an Aquarius as well, so we discussed astrology.
I'm reading Sue Monk Kidd's, When the Heart Waits and she is speaking of the cocoon, the gestation stage. Waiting.
I get it. I get the messages that are all around me and I'm learning as well how others deal with it.
It's not an easy stage, as there is a lot of inner work and quiet time to be had... waiting is key.
Waiting by immersing yourself in yourself. This I do best by painting. Painting is my therapy. It reflects, it mirrors and helps bring things to the surface.. that which is not always comfortable. It helps me to look deeply into that forever question: "Why am I here? What is my purpose?"
Sometimes I get it. That feeling of contentment when everything is all right with the world, love surrounds me and I feel the abundance of All That Is!
and then there comes those times of doubt. Am I delusional?
Beyond the Garden Gate caused reflection on how we need to break from our self-limiting boundaries. We need more passion, risk taking, adventure!
We become torn between obligations and responsibilites, to be the good child, and the lust to take it ALL in. Explore ALL of it.
We limit ourselves with Time and Space... and maybe that is the real illusion.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Nature's Mandalas

In awe of the patterns of nature.
Almost everyday, I watch the unfolding of the sunflowers...
and the bees that they attract.
Mother Nature Y